Little Girl Lost

July 27, 2010 at 6:20 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

There once was this girl who was really quite  quiet and shy.  She wasn’t one to approach strangers and initiate a conversation but would much  rather hang back, assess the situation and try to figure out how to “make friends” from there.  Because of this approach to new social situations,  people would tell her that she was cold and unapproachable.   And this label hung with her for a very long time.  And she wore it like a shield to protect herself from the possible hurt of rejection.  And it held her back from taking the steps to meet some people that she really wanted to meet.   Even though there were some people she really wanted to meet.  And know.  And possibly date.  Somewhere along the way she realized that what other people thought mattered but not as much as she thought it did.  And that people who wanted to know her would make an effort to break through that “cold” and “unapproachable” exterior.  And people did.  And over a great period of time this girl changed into a confident person who could initiate new friendships and navigate the ups and downs of life.  But somewhere she got lost again and found her way back to the cold and unapproachable girl she was.  But not in the same way – in a different way.  Life had handed her some things that were so twisted that even the most cunning stranger could not break through this new, improved exterior.  So now she searches the past to find the key to the future that will once again allow her to open the doors to new and exciting things.

Conversations with Henry – Act 1

July 12, 2010 at 10:06 am | Posted in Henry Stuff | Leave a comment

Busy Mom is in Monday mode of working out, showering, doing laundry and hoping to meet family members for lunch.  In an attempt to thwart an arguement with sassy 7 year old she offers up clothing advice for the day:

Mom:  Sophie, do you want to wear a dress today?

Sophie:  Yeah!!

Henry:   Do you have a dress for me to wear today?

Mom:  No Bud, boys don’t really wear dresses.

Henry:  But they wear shoes!

Yes they do.  What a smart boy.

Some Names Have Been Changed to Protect the Innocent-But You Still Probably Know Who They Are

July 8, 2010 at 1:00 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

There are so many things I want to write here because it does help me.  But it also hurts me.  At least it could hurt me depending on who, if anyone, is actually reading this blog anymore.  Having been in a state of flux over the last say 3 years at least, there are things I’ve written about that are very personal to me.  Hauntings of a life passed me by seem to be what most troubles me.  Just because I’m thinking/feeling/experiencing haunts doesn’t mean I’m going to bug out on this life situation.  It just means that when I have those freakin’ dreams that are too real for comfort and I wake wondering about all the “what ifs” that could have possibly been and I start to curl into the fetal position on my bed, perhaps you should just leave me alone for a day or two and let me wade through the muck to see how I come out on the other side.  There is so much floating through me – some real, some complete and utter fantasy – that it’s hard to figure out how to separate the two so I can make sound judgments on the real stuff and let the fantasy stuff linger a bit longer in my head.  I’m not trying to intentionally hurt anyone….believe me, I don’t think anyone is hurting more than I am.

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